I have been focused on fighting the thoughts about how pulling out hairs will "improve" and "fix" my hair... and now I'm realizing that it's not just every once in a while that I pull for other reasons. Now more and more I'm finding that even when I love how my hair looks, I'm willing to mess it up to be able to pull. How whacked!!!
It's literally just becoming something to keep my hands busy. I've tried toys and fiddle things, I knit sometimes, I even use a head scratcher that feels amazing and I can use with one hand. Right now I'm just a mess and I really don't like myself.
Please pray for me! My husband is doing everything he can to encourage and focus me. God really is the only One who can help me. I'll keep crying out to Him and would love it if you would lift me up to Him too... Thanks!
