lost.

I'm really sorry that I have not posted in a while. You know how technology can be sometimes... this blogger site wasn't working so I couldn't even log in to my account. I was freaking out because I thought I had lost access to this blog forever! I was really disappointed by that... :(

Right now, in terms of Trich... I'm a little lost in the chaos. I'll think about Trich and try to stay away from it, but for the most part it is not on my mind. That is not to say that I don't pull, but rather I don't realize it or if I do, I seem to not care. After all the progress I have made, this is a sad state... but sadness is not the word that I feel best describes this time. I believe "lost." is the most accurate way to depict it. I need the Great Shepherd to guide me back to where I should be, lead me back to the fold, and remind me what my purpose is... because I am lost.    ...and longing for a home.

Wrong Thinking

It's been quite a while since I've written. I'm sorry about that. I know that for some of you this is the only way you know how my Trich is going... and you've been SO out of the loop.

Recently, I have been hit over the head with the same concept over and over and over again! You know how that happens sometimes? Well, let me tell you about it. In every area that I've had some sort of issue or struggle, I have come to the realization that it all boils down to...

WRONG THINKING

Everything!!!

And after all these realizations...
One of my pastors told my Sunday school class that all sin is a result of wrong thinking. He was especially emphasizing that it is a result of wrong thinking about God!

• His character
• His thoughts (toward us or otherwise)
• His abilites (over sin etc)
• His hearing
• His love
• His perseverance (in pursuing a relationship with us)
• His patience
• His forgiveness
• His strength
• even His existence

This has been such a powerful idea in my life! It's SO true! ...but I never would have been able to recognize that before- even if someone had tried to tell me. I had to go on this journey to learn, to grow, to discover this powerful truth.

I'm definitely NOT saying that everything is back to normal- or everything's cleared up and taken care of. Definitely not! BUT I am saying that I am turned around and with much more secure footing. It is so much easier to tackle when I just deal with my thoughts that LEAD to the temptation, rather than the temptation itself. It's part of "taking every thought captive." It's definitely not easy, but it is so much better than dealing with and trying to cure the symptoms without curing the root and the cause. If I don't take care of the cause, it will either return or I will end up with a new problem with the same source.

Thank you so much for checking up on me and for all your support! Please pray for me as I try to stop tying my identity to being a "Tricha". It is not my identity, just something I do... and won't do forever!