Hair Cuttery

Oh my gosh!!! I never would have expected this realization to come just from getting a trim!

Ok, let me back up and give you some background...
Yesterday I went to get my hair done. This is always really hard- going to a hairstylist. I try so hard to hide the imperfections in my hair due to Trich, but they see it all. I don't have a regular stylist that I always go to, so each time it's a discovery process. If they ask, I tell them, but the woman yesterday did not ask. She commented and made a lot of faces (the faces really hurt me).

Once she knew what she was dealing with, we had a fun conversation. I began regaining my love for my hair... and then I remembered that every time I get my hair done I re-love my hair. Hmmmm, maybe I shouldn't avoid or put off getting my hair done when I feel like I need a trim. It HELPS with Trich. It hurts a little, but honestly it's a good thing. And I also LOVE my hair again!

Loving my hair is really important. I realized that the only things that I don't like about my hair are directly a result of, and in no way a result of anything but, Trichotillomania. The way God made my hair- I LOVE IT!!!!! While I was sitting in the chair watching this woman work through my thick head of hair (even after all the hairs I've pulled out!), I traveled back in time to my childhood days. EVERYONE hated their hair, EVERYONE was always complaining about their hair, and EVERYONE was jealous of EVERY other type of hair but their own. I never jumped on that bandwagon. I loved my hair and was proud of it. People were jealous of that confidence and satisfaction. I also remembered how hair stylists were always exclaiming about how incredibly thick my hair was!!!! I'm so thankful for that. I still hear about the thickness of my hair even now and I have some considerably bare spots. (No bald spots right now- thankfully. Praise the Lord!)

As much as I love my hair right now, it really hurts me to think of pulling it out or hurting it in anyway! This is so useful in my recovery process! This is not to say I have not pulled at all since my hair was done, but it has significantly decreased- even minimal!

I have resolved to get my hair done regularly. It does not need to be anything big; a trim is fine. I just need a hair stylist to work with my hair- for me to be vulnerable and then to regain my love and respect for this gift God gave me called "HAIR".