Steps Back

Hey everybody,
I had been doing REALLY well with my hair! ...Sometimes I was even able to release a hair from my hand after I picked it out and was prepared to pull it out but before the hair actually detached from my scalp.

Tonight is not like this at all however.
I have a huge pile of hair at my feet and probably a hole on the side of my head. I'm a mess!!! Until now, I hadn't had such a bad time for a few months! Nothing anywhere close to this! After all those steps and lunges forward, I have taken many steps backward. I feel like I am exactly where I was before!

I had begun to TRULY believe that I would be free of Trich- and possibly soon! Never mind that. I'm trapped forever! This cycle will simply continue... with spurts of hope and then ditches of hopelessness! I can't handle any more of this! I'm done, but have no idea what to do about it!!!! This is killing me! I'm crying while I write this because I really can't think of anything that will help.

Yours truly,
Modern Day Tricha