FIFTY EIGHT

All these numbers.... all these records...

So much excitement! This is ridiculous! God is really blessing me as I turn it over to Him and as I let it go- by being more open about it and less hard on myself.
I'm more open with those who already know. I'm open to informing people of it at all. I'm not so ashamed when I pull. I move on and start the clock over- start from that moment NOT being a Tricha again.

Now I even passed my previous record. I passed the seemingly impossible barrier of 48 hours. This afternoon I ended 58 hours of freedom! It's so amazing that I am at a place in my life where I can focus on the length of time, rather than the fact that I pulled a hair at the end of that! It is truly remarkable! The Lord is freeing me and He's using all of YOU to do it!!!! Thank you SO much! I love you all dearly and thank the Lord for you constantly! I'd be in such a mess if it weren't for the amazing, caring, sensitive, encouraging friends and family that I have been blessed with.

With all the recent goals being met and records being broken, I am confident that I WILL be free from Trichatillamania. And that it won't take YEARS to get there either. I am confident that it is no longer a question of IF... only a matter of WHEN. This debate, this struggle in my mind over if versus when... is OVER... really! Forever! (at least that's what I say now...) This has strengthened my faith in God and His faithfulness to keep His promises and to have the best in mind for His children!

He will not let this rule my life- will not let me be trapped forever, feeling paralyzed and useless for Him- will not let me sit in this depressed state for a lifetime. He will rescue me- will give me the strength, the endurance, the courage, the faith, and the willpower- will protect me- will provide a way of escape- will comfort me and encourage, through His Word or His people... or even the history of His faithfulness in my own life. Not only WILL He do these things, but He IS doing them. He is the Great I AM! ... and He is My ALL! I cannot do anything without Him! Thank You, Jesus! You are freeing me from these chains which weigh me down from being all I can be for You!