Vision of Forgiveness

There I was. In a room full of people.

People who pretend to love me, but

they don't even know me. A few know

and those few love me, but even them

-they can't know everything or fully

understand.

All of a sudden, Someone entered the

room. I was overwhelmed. So uncertain

as to how I should react. I wanted

to show the greatest respect. In

military settings, I would stand at

attention or sometimes salute. That

didn't seem quite appropriate. I

considered running over to Him, screaming

His name, and embracing Him excitedly.

Again it didn't fit. It was too friendly

for Someone so holy, but the other was too

formal- too cold- for Someone so dear-

for the One who knows- the One who

not only loves but IS Love!

Without a further thought, tears flowed

from my eyes. Uncontrollable. Yet I did

not want to control them- despite all

these people surrounding me. I forgot

about all of them. Even those I

love mattered not at this moment.

I fell to the ground-suddenly unable to

use my legs. All muscles went limp.

But it didn't matter, I didn't mind.

I didn't even think of it.

As I was there on the floor bawling

my eyes out without a care in the

world except this Holy Visitor,

I felt gentle hands come over me. One lifted

my head til I looked into the most beautiful

eyes to ever exist. Those eyes were full of

true compassion, true love, true understanding,

true empathy! No condemnation! Though

He had every right to condemn. No one

else knew what He knew. No one else

is so holy. None so perfect. None like

Him in any way! Not even in the least!

Suddenly I heard something escape my lips.

"Oh, Jesus!"

It only barely slipped out through the tears and

sobs. Those two words were so full of brokenness,

so full of regret, full of guilt, and also recognition of

His holiness, His righteousness, His justice.

But it was also full of gratefulness, humility,

and love- not of my own ability... but

because His love was so great I could not help

but have it flow right back to Him.

This was such a great encounter. I never

want to forget. NEVER!

Lord, please keep this on my mind!

Thank You so much for this! Thank You so much!

Feb. 24th

2011