What to do, what to do

I have been trying to figure out what to do with my hair...

Do I cut it and even it all up again? Do I let it continue to grow? How will either decision affect my pulling? I've been doing well and would hate to make things worse, but I do not want to leave it and be tempted to pull because of the unevenness... Eventually, I would like to grow my hair out more and how will I ever do that if I'm always cutting it? Will I ever have longer hair again? Can I? Is it possible now that I have Trich?

Unfortunately, worrying about and considering all these questions has led me to pull more than I have been in quite a while. To be fair, I think being sick and being frustrated about being sick is also affecting Trich right now.

UGH! But this is proving the point! I don't want to keep cutting my hair shorter and shorter. I like having hair! I miss all the things I could do with it when it was long... At this point though, I'm more concerned that my hair will get increasingly shorter with each haircut because of how much the stylist has to cut off to even up the ends.

Thankfully, my roommate pointed out that when I leave it curly the unevenness is much less noticeable. This also requires less maintenance! Anyway, I just really am torn about what to do! Do I get a small trim to help even it out, but not too much so it's not super short? Do I leave it and let the curliness hide it and hope that I don't pull? What do you all think? Please let me know!!!