:'( OUCH!

MOAN...

This is how it goes.

Unfortunately, I did not break the pattern this time.

The pattern (as I've told you before) is that I will be doing REALLY well and instantly I fall really hard back into trichotillomania. I take pride in my achievement and I guess I get comfortable and drop my guard too much. I'm not exactly sure how it works, but it always does. Never fails... sadly. 

Here is what I have done in about 10 minutes:

You can't even see it as well in this picture as I can in person.

In addition to the usual problem of relapsing, I had some extra stress added to my life shortly after my 48 hour accomplishment. Currently, I am having some issues with roommates- more accurately, they have some issues with me. I didn't know anything was wrong until the past few days, but evidently these problems have existed for quite a while. As you can imagine, this is quite upsetting. And guess where I turned...

I cannot explain to you how upset I am right now. I'm upset about these circumstances I am finding myself in! I don't understand what's happening! I'm a wreck over this!

I'm upset at myself for relapsing after such a great feat! I was doing so well! 

How could I? How am I ever going to get back on track again? Will I ever be free? Will I ever be able to break out of this trend, this cycle? Can I just be normal, with normal problems for once???? PLEASE! I'm sick and tired of this! Why can't I break free? Why am I still struggling with this? I've fallen so far! This really hurts! And right now even pulling out my hair hurts (physically and emotionally)! Nothing is helping! I want out! Get me OUT of here! I'm stuck!

WHY? 

HOW? 

WHEN? 

WILL it happen? 

CAN I? 

PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!! SOS! SOS! SOS! SOS!

MOAN... :'(