Are you cold?

The last post probably made you all think that I'm doing really well right now. Or at least that I'm feeling better about things- thinking more positively and all that.
Well, that's not exactly accurate. One of my friends noticed yesterday at church that something was definitely up with me. I told him that I was having great difficulty with trich. Basically yesterday morning, I took about a half hour doing my hair. Not that I was trying to do something elaborate. I was just trying to do something simple that would guarantee that my bald spots are covered. I ended up with a bow right on the crown of my head. It was impossible to arrange my hair to have it cover it. I had to resort to a bow covering the large spot that's right there.

This put me in a terrible mood for church...

A friend of mine (right now I don't remember which one- probably one I've already mentioned) gave me the idea to wear gloves. Because I was so traumatized by not being able to hide my spots, I decided to give it a try. Luckily yesterday it was a little cold and my church also is always so cold. Most people didn't think much of it; they just figured that I was keeping my hands warm (especially since I'm a musician).

Although the gloves worked yesterday, I haven't worn them much today because it's not cold outside. I just don't think people would buy that excuse today, which is disappointing. The gloves really worked!!!! It was pretty exciting to realize that. It's a good thing winter is coming! These coming months of cold weather will help my scalp so much! I'm so excited!!!!! :D Hopefully with so much time not pulling I will be able to go into the spring gloveless and freed from trich! That would be amazing!!!!

"Lord, thank You so much for giving me such amazing friends! I know that without them I would have no chance of getting over this. Thank You for bringing them into my life and giving me the courage to tell them. Their support is essential and helps me get through the rough times- especially when I am really struggling with trichotillomania! I'm looking forward to sharing my story of victory with other trichsters in the future! Thank You for the glimmers of hope that You have given me when I needed it most! If it wasn't for You loving and caring for me, I'd be in so much trouble and have no hope and no way of escape! I love You! but I realize that I only am able to love You because You love me first! Lord, You're AWEsome! Truly! In Your precious Son's name I pray, Amen."